Guilt. We as moms know this word all to well. In fact it’s something we can’t get rid of no matter how hard we try. And it is absolutely, a mom thing. How the male gene isn’t capable of this I haven’t figured out yet (lucky for them). All I know is work, family, one child, two children, pesticides, organic fruit, whole wheat, trans fat, pba & phalate free, soccer, baseball, gymnastics, yard work, house work…hmmmmm, and I wonder where the guilt comes from. I guess it’s a good thing males don’t have these genes or my children would be neurotic. I like to have a schedule: dinner by 5:45 pm (it takes them forever to eat), bath at 6:30 and in bed by 7:15 (now that my oldest is reading book times takes a really long time also). Why do I feel the need for such a schedule? Because if they don’t eat well and sleep for 10 hours (I have 6:00 am wakers) then I feel guilty that somehow it will hamper my oldest performance in school, and foster breakdowns for my youngest.
My husband has a completely different view of the situation. Let’s take Tuesday for example. I pull in the driveway at 6:25 pm to find my husband in the tree house (he’s building one for our boys, although I know he is enjoying it), my youngest runs over to me and gives me the biggest hug, and my oldest yelling from the tree house saying “look Mom, Dad got the railing on, now we won’t fall out”. With the ending to that sentence, the nail gun goes off and on goes the railing. I wait a second and yell “have they had dinner yet?” I know the answer, but feel the need to ask anyway. I go inside and start to make something that resembles a nutritious dinner, yet they can be fed and in bed within 40 minutes. I used to be upset about a situation like this. I would replay the sentence “how is this not obvious to him” in my head a hundred times. Until I realized what he is seeing. He is seeing his two boys enjoying being outside building a tree house. I mean a tree house 10 feet in the sky with a ladder, trap door and everything. What on earth could be better than this? Dinner? Who needs that. I’ll give em’ some pancakes, wipe them down with a baby wipe and will be ready for bed. Guilt? What’s that? I feel guilty because I’ve been at work and not home in time to make dinner, but he’s been home, so what on earth do I have to be guilty about? But we still do, because we are moms.
The conclusion - we as moms have guilt. Guilt about everything. The choices we make, the ones we don’t and the ones we should have made. And the hard fact is it will NEVER go away. That’s where the Momfidence comes in. Momfidence is taking the outa, shoulda, woulda and coulda as described by author Paula Spencer and being ok with the fact that we can’t do everything. Her subtitle is “An Oreo never killed anybody and other secrets to happier parenting. I think that sums it up pretty well.
I think her book is wonderful and highly recommend it to all moms out there. Each month I’m going to be talking about a new book, and each one that is reviewed will be available in our resource library. Members can take it out for a week. Of course you can always purchase it too.
Happy reading, Shannon